It's one of those days that I feel like crawling back under the covers....it's dark, foggy, gloomy outside...and the air feels "heavy" if you know what I mean.
I have lots I want to accomplish today, but I don't know if I will get it done or not.
I have been feeling really "blah" lately, no specific reason, just icky. I don't have the ambition or desire to do the things I should be. I think in part it is the weather..we have had really odd weather this past month or so.
I also don't like change and am a worrier. I am a "what if" person. I worry about my daughter leaving home next year and not being able to see her or make sure she's okay...silly I know..it's a long way off. I look at the beautiful young woman she has turned into..focused, smart, mature....and I wonder what happened to my "little girl". She's much more mature than I was at her age.
But I guess that's what moms do..they worry.
I worry about getting older....so far I'm not liking it alot..LOL....
I think about my mom and dad every day. It is almost 2 years since my mom passed away, just over 3 since my dad. I miss visiting them and asking their advice. I miss watching them enjoy my children and my children enjoying them.
It hurts that they no longer have an extended family that enjoys spending time with them.
I think I am at a point in my life where I need a "purpose". I don't know what that is, but I need a focus. I need to change things in my life that I am not happy with.
I know that alot of women my age have children that are grown with families of their own, I am reminded of this by my youngest daughter, who has friends with mom's young enough that I could be THEIR mom. I'm not reminded by the other two....it seems to be different with their friends and the mom's ages. When did I get OLD? It wasn't supposed to happen this fast! LOL
Anyone ever have days like this? I seem to have them alot....age never bothered me before....what happened?
Well fellow bloggers....must go try to accomplish SOME of what I set out to do today! I really didn't mean this to be such a deep post today!